My eyes cast down, the ground I see

For 18 years, was home to me

That day the same, as all before

Until He offered so much more

What do you see when you look at me

Hunched and broken under the tree

Holes in my shoes and stench in the air

No shower to wash my scraggly hair

I slept in the woods as you drove by

You glanced, but didn’t hear my cry

I remember your laugh

When we were out

How the whole room

Would fill with that sound

Who hears your voice, the words you speak?

They float on air, from here to there

A simple word can grow and grow

Becoming more, you’ll never know

We bring good news and sometimes scorn

Our words can take a drastic turn

Sadness lingers

Maybe you don’t walk with your mom anymore

Maybe it’s been years, or days

You’re single and there’s no one to prompt your littles to love you extra special

Maybe you long for motherhood yourself

And though you’ve tried, there’s no baby to hold

Some endings become beginnings. Just when we feel like we can’t go under the wave one more time. Just when we think the weight of this is too heavy. Just when we can’t see the next step. When it ends, dies, runs out, leaves.

Head held high, chin up

All is right with me

So full, so correct

It’s all that I can see

When anger rules and hatred festers

When unforgiveness drains

The Light is hidden, tucked inside

And not allowed to reign

In the ambulance ride

With my son in the back

Victim to his own behavior

In the emergency room

As the doctor tells him

That he can ask me to step out